Start before you're ready

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I'm not a writer. I'm not a photographer. I'm super ADHD. (Like, diagnosed.) So. Obviously I should have a blog!

One aspect of the aforementioned ADHD is that I spend a lot of time and brain energy over thinking e v e r y t h i n g. What's the best spinning wheel to buy (if I had money)? What's the best way to secure the raw edges of a tapestry weaving? To get a fitted sloper, is it better to just fit something roughly your size, or draft something from your measurements? (If fitting - which pattern do you start with? If drafting - which method is best?)

My friend Kim describes herself as a camp counselor for grown-ups. How great is that? I mean, I loved summer camp (I know lots of people didn't.) I always got the 'enthusiasm' awards. Anyway, Kim's is the descriptor that I feel most closely resembles this beat in my chest. I don't see myself as an artist. Or particularly aesthetically creative. But I love figuring out how things are made. And troubleshooting the making process. And helping other people manifest their vision.

Anyway. I see myself as kind of a crafting enabler.

Hey, my job as a Home Ec teacher is pretty perfect? (Sometimes I forget that.) Although, I think younger kids and adults might also like some of the stuff we do in class? And sometimes I need a place to explore beyond my class outline.

Everyone seems to say that when you do a blog or a business or an anything, that you should pick one thing and focus. But I've been trying to pick one thing and focus for a while and... I want to stop waiting for myself to pick one thing. I want to just do the things.

Except gardening. I kill plants. I allow myself to not garden.

So maybe I'll keep this up. Sporadically. And maybe someone will look at it sometime. That might be fun.